argh why are things so confusing and sian recently. theres no feel for anything.
sports psychologist talk tmr omg i need.

mood = emo

blogged at 8:52 AM

recently there're so many decisions to make; haii, so divided!!!!

blogged at 9:07 AM

omg give me a break life's so packed theres not one day when i have the whole day to chilll. welll, on the bright side, being busy is much better than wasting my life away sleeping or watching tv. just finished watchng the annoying devil DaGe asked me to watch and im like shocked at what the guy did? i would be so so so pissed if someone poured water over me from the window After i get a freakin haircut???!!! haha or use the fire extinguisher to fake a fire and force me out of the toilet cubicle????!!! hahaha reatrded guy. omg why am i watching such videos and sacrificing my precious sleep !!! i gtg man, april fool tmrw!!






tasneem, the song is stuck in my head too. ahahh.

And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you;

blogged at 7:51 AM

Speak with your tongue tied,
I know that you're tired
But I just want to know,
Where you want to go,
I may be sad, But I'm not weak,
This situation is bleak
And you puffy eyes never lie,
Your tears come from inside.

Until someday I'll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesterday's not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

Drown your fears with me
I'm feeling real sorry
Your glossy eyes don't need
The sadness they have seen
But you're way too deep to swim
Back up again
But somehow I can't find
The moment you said goodbye

Until someday I'll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesterday's not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

This is becoming a problem I'm hurting it's unfair
But somehow your words,
The way that I heard are haunting me,
You're under my skin
You're breaking in,
And the tasteless fights that filled our nights
Are starting to cave in,
You're under my skin
You're breaking in
And if Sundays what it takes to prove
I have nothing else to loose

Until someday I'll be waiting for an answer
I guess that yesterday's not good enough for you,
You know that I hate this song,
You know that I hate this song
Because it was written for you

blogged at 9:30 AM

Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not selling all of it to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...


Never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't you fall...
Never gonna be alone!
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.


And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Coz forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...


Never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.


Ooooh!
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes...


Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...


Never gonna be alone!
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.

I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing a word all day,
I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing a word all day.


nice soonngg (:

blogged at 5:05 AM

alrighttttttt. Orientation 2009 has ended!!
it was really a great great time with ivanhoe :D im so glad im in ivanhoe and have such a sweet og. welllll im so tired from the mass dance today but just wna blog down some things that made orientation so special for me. theyre not rly Great things but they rly made my days drng orientation.
-my ogms started screaming so so happily drng the finale in which ivanhoe got 3rd! it was then that i realised that the success of the og mattered to them as much as it was to me and i was so happy (:
-i was doing the 6 mass dances with Ivanhoe!, and due to the egg yolk theory i was dancing alongside 2 girls that i didnt know. they seemed rly dead at first and i guess i helped to hype them up by prompting and screaming and all. then sudd in the midst of one dance, the girl on my right turned to me and said smth like " this is the 1st time im ever enjoying a mass dance!!!!!". and the other girl on my left gave me a high 5! ahah wow i was rly so glad they were finally loosening up and enjoying everything finally.
-my ogms helped me pick nice seashells willingly cos they saw me searching for them alongside the beach :D moreover, they purposely picked up the cone shaped ones cos i was looking for that type :D

some orientation photos, much more taken though i just dont have it w me now:

stop drop roll watch out for ivanhoeeeeeee!




& it ends tonight;

blogged at 8:21 AM

well, today's erica's bday and i just finished doing her board with the notes from the vj team. i think she was kinda disappointed nothing happened today from us to her so hope she doesnt come to my blog ltr so she'll get a surprise tmr! life's been hectic but im gg on just fine, having fun and being more disciplined at some stuff at the same time. thanks abby for the msg today (: its U21 semis tmr! actualy im real glad we got into the semis, it was rly qt a stroke of luck cos we are still not used to playing w each other that well. hopefully, everything will be fine tmr and juanita's and my knees wont act up too much so we can give our best. theres also IVANHOE meeting tmr to prepare our walk-in, which is rly cool cos we got a dance and costumes and all. :D moreover, my og has got some real fun ppl too. (: alot of things aside from the usual stuff has happened recently- no comments. though some stuff that happened has rly started to brighten my life day by day, hopefully it nvr ends. anw i was just finishing my food list that harun made us do and im amazed by how weirdly i eat. for example, i drank 3 cups of MILO (squek- hehhehheh!) ytd and 1 litre of ginseng today. like woah! omg no wonder i had a heat stroke and diarrhea now, i shld rly stop eating so funnily.
melody's gg to bring nail polish on sunday before our 3rd/4th or finals game and then we are gg to lao yu sheng after the game. hahah omg we are really such ah lians and cny-laggers but we dont rly care anyway.
alright gtg off to do other stuff cos i havent been having free time to myself much recently. offfff

blogged at 6:18 AM

I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.

I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave

Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.

I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You

So were You

blogged at 6:13 AM

game against sn today we won 4-2! but i guess theres much to improve cos as the coach said, we are so errr whats the word? scrappy. anw life has been SOO hectic- when was it not been? esp in the beginning of the year. trng was on on mon tues wed and nats on thurs and another game agast sn on fri! wow ccab and delta are both seriously my fav hang out places. anw were really caught in a dilemma here, what bout our studies/ ITS A.S MAN.
haii no idea how to cope with everything just triyng my best now.

anw i saw coach jude today, clarice and i walked him and mr ng from delta to the mrt. really glad to talk to him cos hes really the best coach ive had. still, im not saying that my present one is bad. and im so sorry squek and cols bout the frog porridge thing, it seems as though i keep pangsehing you all for everything, the movies etc. really dont mean to k. times with you all are really very fun and the best.

anw i told my mum i wanted to pierce my ear again and she was horrified cos she thought i was becoming a lianzzxx. hahah this is so funny. today i was so pleasantly surprised and touched to see a bag of cotton on my table. last night i was listening to my ipod and falling asleep when my mum came in and asked why im not sleeping yet. i was qt irritated with being interrupted in my emo songs that i just blurted out that my pillow was too high and now look waht she've done. below the bag of cotton wrote :have flatten your pillow by half." Awwwww. sometimes i hate myself for being out 24/7 and not doing much for the family.

ah well, time to start on my work, die diee.

blogged at 5:06 AM

'Coz if you don't dream big what's the use of dreaming
If you don't have faith there's nothing worth believing
It takes one look to make the stars worth reaching for
So reach out for something more!!!!!!!!!!

blogged at 7:52 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ix2g8R-mSQU&feature=channel_page
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i-hHYxM1LKc

lol lol

by the way, yknw what mons? my youtube acc name is ilovesakimonkeys. hahaha

blogged at 8:11 AM

im dead tired from attending this wedding dinner and so instead of blogging out everything here are some quick quotes about recent events: (er and only the ppl involved can understand all these)

-Kayin pongola bernini hope you all have been eating well.
- Can you pls show yourself soon SAKI monkey?
- i got too much Deep Heat.
- Breathe like a baby and dog to worship lead
- ivan- HOU
- Oishi Des. Hon to sai. Youtube!
- Theres nvr a right time to Say Goodbye
- More than words

hahah i think this all may seem very weird to ppl who were not part of all these diff events but im rly too tired to spell it all out.
gtg and suffer from japan withdrawal syndrome. i miss everything and everyone.

blogged at 7:43 AM

so i went to prom night with abby tan last night to catch a glimpse of the juniors. really reminded me of our prom in which i had a very very bad hairstyle so that everyone called me Shanghai Tai Tai. hahaha but those were good times despite all these :D anw my juniors dressed up and they all looked real glam for prom! their batch only managed to book half a hall though while i batch booked the Whole thing last year. :D

blogged at 3:09 AM

birthday with sn friends, nothing more to wish for :D
sigh, yes layz, you made me miss sn again!

blogged at 6:23 AM